Thursday's Thoughts: Procrastination to Patience

Thursday's Thoughts: a taste of what I'm thinking

When I started this blog I had this organized plan silly idea that I would start each post a week ahead of time.  For example on a Friday I would post a Fermented Friday recipe and then start working on the next one.  This way I would actually be making tofu on Tuesdays, writing thoughts on Thursdays, you get the idea. It would give me enough time to edit and change things. I even started a Google calendar  planing out which recipes and topics I would work on on specific days.  Hahahahahahahahahahaha, yeah right. I knew that plan wouldn't last long.  I am just starting to write this late Wednesday night.  And I still have no idea what I'm going to write about in the next few paragraphs.  Although I have good intentions, I'm also an excellent procrastinator.  It's just more motivating at the last minute.  Apparently it is still not last minute enough for me to think of something to write about at this moment.  Hang on....(check email, facebook, foodgwaker, continue to procrastinate a little longer).....okay I'm back with a topic...


I guess I can give you an update on the patience predicament I wrote about Monday.  For simplicity sake I'll stick to the job hunt as an example.  It has been over a month since I've heard anything in regards to jobs I've applied for.  Even when I called a company back inquiring about the position, leaving voice-mails and emailing I didn't get an answer much less a lead.  In today's world there are so many applicants you may not even get a "this position has been filled" email. It is also difficult to find positions to apply for. I finally found some with potential (not really what I want to do, but at least a start) and then ran into application troubles. Things like, "Your email is not valid." or "Our site is having problems come back later".  Needless to say, I was getting discouraged with the lack of progress not to mention impatient.

That's when decided to try another angle.  I looked at the student job board back at the college I went to.  There seem to be a plethora of jobs there even if they are just part-time or in another field. I even found a full-time undergrad research position.  Not sure if I qualify since I graduated, but it was better than minimum wage.  Since it's a college town students are coming and going frequently and job and housing turnover is higher than where I'm currently living.  As for apartments down there, I found quite a few students who are looking for summer sub-leasers so I wouldn't have to sign a year long contract. (Because I reeeeaaallllly hope it doesn't take a year to find a "real job".)  And then there's the obvious plus that I'd be back with my friends and more independent.

I thought of all this and was looking up the details when I was not in the most pleasant mood.  Although I felt like packing up my car and driving down as soon as humanly possible, I figured I was being pretty impulsive and should let it rest a few days.  I also needed to stop and ask God what He thought of my plan.  Yeah, there's the first problem....is this my plan or God telling me its time for the next step?  So I prayed for wisdom, guidance and direction.  Prayed that I would be able to tell if this was a good idea or just an impulsive act of frustration on my part. Prayed that God would give me something, anything to go on instead of the lack of response and dead ends I seemed to be stuck at.

Since then I have gotten 2 calls and an email for "real jobs" (after hearing nothing for over a month).  Two of them have a lot of potential and I have an interview pending for next week or the week after.  Seeing how the whole interview process went earlier this year, I expect this round to take at least a month or more before any decisions are made.  I guess I need to stay where I'm at and continue waiting before up and moving at the drop of a hat.  Or maybe both of these will fall through quickly and I'll still have the summer sublease option.  There's also the possibility that I'll actually get one of these jobs thus putting an end to the where to live and what to do dilemma.  All I can do is continue praying that I make the right choices and not just the ones I think are best for me. And that probably doesn't include "God, hurry up and help me be patient already!"  I have this silly idea that I need my life all planned out just like I tried to plan ahead for blog posts.  But maybe the last minute excitement is better than knowing the whole plan in advance.  I'm sure patience is better than procrastination.  I'll let you know later :)


Food for Thought: "Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark in the hopeless swaps of the not-quite, the not-yet, the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish in lonely frustration for the life you deserved and have never been able to reach. The world you desire can be won. It exists.. it is real.. it is possible.. it's yours. " -Ayn Rand